Saturday, August 28, 2010


There is no desperate measure to be found right now when desperation peaked

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Hearts Full Daggers

Dear Naz Ferrer

I’m sorry for how I act, that I am foolish when it comes to being the bigger person. You know, I just can’t ignore those losers.

While my temper is raging at the first sight of it, now I’m having second thoughts. Should I or should I not …destroy them.

I’m not sure if I can do that, not sure sometime, if I even had the heart to do that to other human being, regardless of what they did and said.

But just in case, I’ll be close,

Maybe one day I had enough and

She and I will make sure that they get what they deserve

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Wahai Bimbo ku sayang...

Apa yang kau ada sekarang ini? Wahai sahabatku?
Kerana sangat menyedihkan keadaan kau sekarang

Kau ada rupa yang tak seberapa, bolehlah setakat nak pancing lelaki-lelaki yang tak serupa lelaki itu
untuk menjadi teman kau

Kau ada otak, tapi kau sendiri tahu yang kau sangat jarang menggunakannya, perlukah aku memberikan contoh?

Kau ada maruah..oops,maaf. Kau tak ada maruah, aku kawan kau dan aku tahu sendiri bagaimana kau mencampakkannya ke tepi jalan macam sampah.

Kau ada keluaraga, tapi mereka tak mampu menyayangi kau, tak mampu menghalang kau dari menjadi seorang bimbo yang menyedihkan

Kau ada teman lelaki dan sekalian skandal-skandal kau, tapi aku rasa jauh di sudut hati kau yang makin tak beperasaan itu, kau sendiri tahu semuanya sama ada takkan kekal atau akan sentiasa membuat kau menangis saja.

Mari sini biar aku beritahu apa yang kau ada,
Kau ada kawan, adalah seorang kawan yang tak sempurna, banyak salah dan silap, sama seperti kau.
Cuma bezanya dia menyayangi kau seadanya kau, walaupun terlalu banyak luka di hati kau berikan pada dia.

Dan kasihan kau,

Kau akan kehilangan dia. Kau akan kehilangan driver,tangan yang memeluk kau bila kau kesedihan ditinggalkan jantan, dia yang selalu buat kau ketawa, yang berusaha sedaya mungkin menghantar kau ke klinik bila kau sakit, yang sanggup berbohong demi kau, menjaga maruah kau,

Sekurang-kurangnya kau ada Allah S.W.T
Tapi sedangkan dia yang di depan mata pun susah kau nak hargai jasanya, inikan pula DIA yang lebih lama kau ingakari dan tinggalkan

Semoga kau bahagia, semoga kau sedar dan ya, Semoga kau berjumpa sahabat sepertinya

Friday, August 20, 2010

You and Me (imma give you one time)

I wish we got time and reasons
To thread this moment longer
I wish we got no doubt
And you won’t have to leave me
I wish no borderline would meet me

I wanted to fall in love and fall out of it
You wanted all of me and this is what I’m giving
My love for your heart with no reasons
Your heart for my touch no treasons

Just you and me
Tomorrow whatever it maybe
Just you and me
Today and all the joy it gave
Just you and me
Yesterday will be our history

Oh yes you and me

Thursday, August 19, 2010


All of my dream and there you are
Standing right behind it
Shadowed with desire
Torn with hope
Black velvet augury
Calling me on

Monday, August 9, 2010

The night

Sometime i wish i could stop caring 
I wish that i wont jerked off from bed
Wondering where you are
I sometime wished this were your life
Instead of mine

I really wish you knew how i felt

Friday, August 6, 2010

I'll fight

There were days where I would keep hundreds of poem dedicated to  you, there were days where  every single thing  that you do amused me, made me happy and all of that I posted in this blog of mine.
There were times, where a simple walk in at the park would certainly make my day and now those days were missing and I couldn’t put my finger on just why?
Am I ignorant, blind and clueless?
Have you changed? Are you still in love with me?
Because I do, always do
Time could turn back as far as she wanted but I'll choose you no matter what difference does it make
But I can’t say the same about you huh?
Never mind dear, I’m holding on, I’m not going down without a fight

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Love, Love and more Love

A few days ago, I wanted to write about the miracle that has been blessed upon me, Alhamdulillah and that I was able to attend the birthday party (Julien) after all without any worries. Although I felt bad that my Mom missed her school reunion and from what I heard it is pretty awesome, classmates and Siti Nurhaliza (LOL) were present :DD
So the day started with Lex, Naz, Julien and Sandra, soon followed with Aki, Dave, and Arul (or is it Asrul) and a couple of new friends and what joy it is.
I haven’t met Naz for a long time and meeting him, almost brought me to tears (but of course I didn’t cry) I realized how much that I misses him,

You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherished all your life
And when you know how much that means
You found that special thing
You’re flying without wings
(Westlife, not sure if I got the lyrics right)

The same goes to Dave, gosh, at some point I really thought I would never see him again and now seeing him standing in front of us, joking and laughing like he used to, it made me happy to see that he’s doing good.
I hope, this friendship of ours last forever, because honestly, a world without you guys,
Is a world that is filled with emptiness

Lex, Naz, Julien,Nana, Aki, Sandra and Dave
Thank you for every laughs, every tears, every joke, every support and your never ending love