Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


This is Blossom 

This is Hannah and me 

Sunday, June 17, 2012


You kill the sunlight with your eyes,
Bringing down the shadows on me,
Anything else that left,
Crumbled in this colored misery,
I wrote too many memoirs,
Each fallen into me,
Like a star shooting down to die,


Little by little,
Day by day,
First your smiles,
Then your eyes,
Until the rest of you,

Saturday, June 16, 2012

The City

The city looked so dark and distorted from here. I felt like we’re walking to hell, like this is just some pathway to the unimaginable. It used to be beautiful here, watching over the city like it’ll ever sleep. Just you and I before everything went to hell. I’m still grieving and I’m not walking away from this horrible nightmare just yet. 


You’re a form of madness,
Coagulated with strained sanity,
I love to rebel against you,
That, when you pushed me against the wall,
It was all good and we were alive,
Well and laughing,
Beneath these layers of the unfathomable,
Series of epiphanies,
We’ll uncover one by one,
With or without the other,
Had you imagine?
A partnership beyond understanding,
A bond beyond borders,
Not even in death will do us part?


I have this habit of looking at houses and wonder of how would it be If I’m the one who lives in it. It gave me some sort of deep seated gladiola and a tinge of sadness somehow.

Taken while I was hanging out with Nad in Kelana Jaya.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Lex :)

I miss you lovely,
For awhile, my life was merry,
In contemplation of words,
You know I have plenty to rhyme,
Right now I'm telling,
That you are always on my mind,
In my soul and in my smile,

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Si penipu yang rawak

Mungkin juga bila ayat-ayat disusun berbelit-belit secara langsung si penulis diberi iktiraf sebagai manusia artistik?. Mungkin seperti itu, dengan mudahnya aku juga menjadi seorang penipu akibat nafsu narsistik aku. 
Seperti semalam beberapa gambar yang aku ambil secara rawak, tapi dalam rawak itu, aku mencari makna. 

Yang tersembunyi. 

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

The Epiphany

I’m moving to the moon, to the moon now,
You can say that I’m giving away the best of me,
You can say that I’m pointless now,
You can say I’m not a friend no more,
I’ll turn to say, a word so blunt,
That it’ll hurt you,
I’m close now, I have now worries,
Your amendment to this ‘friendship’,
You won’t hear me heave,
No, not even a single tear,
I’m close now, so close to heaven,
I’m not afraid if I can’t reach you,
I’m on my own,
I realized I don’t need you,
To the moon, to the moon,


Everything that engraved in your gazes,
Everything that made my heart flutter,
Everything that concede with the serenity of being ‘with’ you,
Everything that we said without saying a word,
Everything that you did,
Everything that you said,
Everything that made me stayed,
Everything that made me smile,
Everything  is…almost gone,

Sunday, June 10, 2012

“Home is where the heart is”

If I can convince that the house contains me,
That it is where my heart lies,
That it is where my heart is needed,
If only I can convince myself, 


The sun is dull,
The cloud is swaying,
It’s just my eyes,
Maybe I’m high,
Or maybe it’s the goodbye,
I never notice before,
The color on your lips,
Its rouge and its natural,
Suddenly I am aware,
Of your beauty,
Underneath the saddened sky,
Whispered goodbye,
Promised that I’ll see you eyes
Once more,


I was in a bit of disregard today, mainly because of this tingling fear and anxiety upon goodbyes. That is not out of the ordinary for me, perhaps even more so that it is quite dull to actually mention it.

Again and again.

I will be home a few hours late maybe by 7 or 8. Tomorrow, I will anticipate something nice, free spirited at best, other than that the thought of getting me on the bus is harrowing.

Friday, June 8, 2012


They said that I am.
Mutual in my haunting,
My hunts are the very one,
My eyes are the noon of their journey,
Glances by glances,
Scoured me with words,
None will succeed, none will reach,
Each, breaching patient,
A sentence is to be seen,
What do you expected of me?
A simple pendulum of answers?


You gazed upon the star, dazed and hazed by pain,
True to your sorrow, you laid while you spare nothing to yourself,
No mercy, not even love and not at all a simple understanding,
There you sat, your eyes sets upon me,
You had no star, no sun, and no moon in your soul,
You are dead to the world,
Alive in your raging hell,
Your emptiness is burning you,

Thursday, June 7, 2012


Calculated move, I see that,
You dished the inside of you,
Within a glance, within the minutes,
Oh you, how easily you,
Frail predictable mule,

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


You are the apocalypse,
The end, the dawn of everything,
You are the contrary of bliss,
The fiery rapture of pleasure,
You are the hell ablaze,
The burning that never cease,
You are the haunting hours,
The creeping nightmares,
The languid sweat in the night,
The stubborn pain in the morning,
You are something out of this world,
You are instilled in every part of the universe,
You are the beating in my heart,
The pounds that attacks in a trance,
You are the tears that never comes,
You are the sorrow that lingers forever,
You are unreachable.


Dastardly, I came with a little hello in my eyes. That’s how I see it sometimes, I felt like mocked your insecurities when I did that and I think you knew but you never said anything at all. I am surprised at your confidence sometimes, did you not know that I was playing my games or are you convinced that whatever games that comes your way…is nothing but something that you have learned before?
I noticed that look of yours, that sly smile or the snicker you gave when I carelessly throw my words around. Still, since we are not at the finishing line just yet, we’ll be on the lookout and the winner, and the winner of course, will take it all.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

detswist note

There's a numbing sensation up to my head/drove me out of the motion
Drove me insane/cooled me with vivid anticipation/hope maybe
Will not have ideas/problems and rumbles of discussion/hate emerged
Burst into a bubble/submerging oneself in a complete contrary
Will not let out/done for the moment/tinge and tingles of anxiety
We can make it/you can
I will be me/yours truly

The Same Old

I desert my common sense,
For a complete abandonment,
Without a truce,
We'll have wars over fire and ice,
Often we turned our back,
Often we ran towards each other,
Often we die in vain,