Thursday, December 27, 2012

Till then

So they left and I am gleefully dominating the laptop. Uninterrupted sleep? Yeah right.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012


I'm not completely disappointed that I can't go to Vietnam but sigh, I needed a break. Breaks, mind you.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Awake, too awake

Late morning this is and yet I am wide awake. I cannot read or dream. My mind is running around in circles, tiny meaningless circles. I feel thoroughly stupid and these are the feelings that made me feel weak. So weak that i have no confidence for the future. I wish I'm not this forlorn of life but my guilt is wearing me down.

On other boring note, the room is filthy and we are just too damn lazy, i suspect that we might even have bed bugs since my skin itches like crazy!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Fun Fair

"I hate you kakak!" I screamed as loudly as I can, before the sensation of having my entire weight lifted off the ground sinking in. I was prepared for the horrid experience and actually thought it was not that bad for a microsecond. Then everything swings wildly to the sides and everytime i opened my eyes, my gut were boiling disgustingly and so I kept my eyes shut.

This is why people lie to their self. Opening their eyes to the truth is frightening, to have no control at all, the unknown.
Instead, what is certain is that if you failed then you might end up spilling your guts out, out for everyone to see, literally and metaphorically.