Saturday, December 28, 2013

Walking through.

I am great now,
Not then,
Than before,
Oh it discerned,
By masses,
Lushes with,

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

All the small things.

All the times in the world, prove to be superfluous in idea that it made me mad just for thinking about it. Like always, I fell to one of my ‘understanding’ and later when I discover the incorrect of things; I feel cheated.

Maybe that is what being young feels like. Always cocky and always in the wrong.

Today are not so different than the others, the initial resentment is still there along with annoyance of many things.  

Be cool Dewi, be cool.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013


There is a lot in my mind. Important, non important, non existing, negligible, notion and all of the impossible. I rather dwell in it so frequently. There is substantial amounts of pleasures in it. I drew in sympathy sometimes. The one that put you down constantly, even in the absence of the perpetrators.

A ghost constantly lurking behind your subconscious, pounds on you when the situation demands it. Until it become,

Your very own demon.

Friday, June 7, 2013

Friday's notion.

Working ny way to those words tangled in your mind, lost somewhere between words and initiated pleasantries. Converse again next time?

Saturday, June 1, 2013

I was hypersomniac yesterday. Now I can't sleep. Wondering why it burns so much.

Thursday, April 25, 2013


I might be a stray,
I am not taken,
You are not my master,

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Its coming.

The lie itself is a given choice and a sheep simply follows it's herd.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Still walking

Forgive my atrocious grammar. I have not been writing for too long of a time. There is nothing to write about that can be made plausible. I am a busy shadows, constantly moving but somewhat hollow. I did not see the point of giving the extra of my innate monologue. It bore people out of their mind.

This is why, I am here after weeks. I am still infected. Still a zombie with one new accounted skill.
I say; yay me.

I've lost a lot more.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

These Stars

The city seems so far away,
Twinkling lights,
Ever moving universe,
Every step that I take,
Brought me back,
Into the lights,
Into these stars,
Undying wish,
As it is,
To be a part of these splendour,
To be a part of,
These stars,

Tuesday, March 19, 2013


An island,
Stranded in my mind,
Lost and found,
Why people care to know,
My head is gone,
I don't need em' now,

You were looking for the sun,
You wanted another run,
I said and I said,
Go find an island,

Thursday, March 7, 2013


Fire over my head,
I burned to the ground,
You set your foot on,
I burned myself,
I burned my way,

Monday, March 4, 2013


Do you want to stay?
And lets play pretend,
Lets risk everything,
Lets put everything on the line,
I want to swim through you,
While you figure me out,
I want to breathe you in,
While you're drowning.

Friday, February 22, 2013

In this Land

I have to change my mind,
I have to question,
It will be endless,
There will be battles,
Something is coming this way,
Then, there will be more,
More to lose and less to take,
Here we are,
In this land,


Hooked and kneeled,
To the ground,
To the sound,
Of everything,
Of authority,


I'll show you loneliness,
In a room full of people,
In a space drowned with voices,
I'll show you loneliness,
By the width of your bed,
By the smiles on your family,
I'll show you loneliness,
Now go on!
Face the mirror!

Tuesday, February 19, 2013


I was neat with fuses,
Waiting for someone to lit the fire,
Never did it calls for a liar,
A habit that never tires,
Slipping now,
A holiday is in order,


Kebodohan orang,
Bertimpa-timpa di bahu sendiri,
Rindunya pada sunyi,
Rindu pada tajam,
Rindu pada merah,
Rindu tahu tak!

Monday, February 18, 2013

What we're coming to

We are crumbling,
Diminish, slowly,
To always live,
We die.

Thursday, February 7, 2013


I wish I do not have to wake up with such blinding fury in my chest. I wish the center of my sanity is not always theirs to decide. I wish I am free

Saturday, January 19, 2013


The very moment when I first saw him, I felt nothing but indifference. He is not the  extraordinaire that I was hoping to meet in my youth. So I believe and was naive to look upon traits, incredible traits, that belongs to no one but my significant other.

He then, are here and there. As a friend with a wistful of disguise that I suspected on him. He was quiet and docile but relentless in his ways. My dislikes for him simmered to entirely something else.


Monday, January 7, 2013

To ponder pessimistically

I did not register to the realities nowadays, to think that another year passed and I am still this. Like last year, I spent it at work (was delivering Chicken Chop) when the clock struck 12. It was a big hurrah to the people there; there were fireworks, bands and all that hoo-hah. I was unimpressed, uninterested and mentally tired.

As for today, we celebrated another birthdays, another all-you-can-eat buffet at home, pictures were taken and memories were made. Although, I fear, in this momentary bliss, we fed off the illusion of everything is alright when it is not.

It’s bubbling slowly.